It has been a stressful week in the Smith household. I went back to work this week. Granted, I eased myself in by only working half days, but we started dropping him off at daycare. As I loaded him in the car on Monday morning, I started the car and Brandon Rhyder’s Freeze Frame Time was playing. It was like the driver’s seat had an eject button in it…I immediately got back out of the car went to the backseat and cried as I kissed and kissed on Gage. When I hear that song from now on, it is all I can think about…that stinging pain I felt on Monday, May 16th, 2011 at 7:45 am.
At baby school (which is how I plan to refer to it from now on) it did not get any easier. Text messages from friends and loved ones telling me they were praying and thinking of us helped tremendously.
Each day has gotten a little more bearable. Still not happy about leaving him, but I have sooooo treasured the time I have had with Gage. In the past three months I have learned more about what it is to love than I could ever imagined. God is so amazing and having Gage has taught me so much about what the words “For God so loved the world that he gave his only son…” mean.
So as we adjust to this new stage of parenthood…the “baby school” phase, I ask for your continued prayers and support. We will survive…
